Wednesday, December 30, 2009

The show.

The Show by Lenka

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle

Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show


      Do you ever wonder... Why we don't have a manual for Life? Success? Relationships? & Love?? I mean really, why don't we? Wouldn't life be easier that way? Really, if we had a book.. with an index, for when a dilemma appears, we could turn to page 96, second paragraph and there would be our solution. No more problems. No more crisis'. No more set backs. No trouble. Just solutions. A book where we could follow our life according and life, as we know it,would be just fine, more than fine! Happy. Stress free.

      Like in school, we were taught biology (I'll never use), or history (yeah its great to know what happened in the passed, but do we really need to learn about it for 12 years, and 4 after that?) Or what about Calculus (I will NEVER use that stuff, EVER. and surely I will never remember it even if I did need to use it one day.)? Why weren't we taking classes such as Surviving the Dating Stage? Or Parenthood 101? What about Making friends? Or MARRIAGE? (because we ALL know we need to learn that stuff.. wayy too many divorces happening these days) Or How you know he's THE ONE?

      But if there was a book... Or if they taught us in class, would we even listen? Probably not. We would most likely try and break every rule in the book. But you still kind of wonder.. Hmmm what it would be like. Would you purchase the book? Would you sign up for that class? I would. I could sure use a tutor right now too.

      Or if we followed every rule.. Studied for every test... Knew this subject back and forth. Could ace any test... Would it work? Like if we could learn about every situation.. every scenario, and know the correct solution, would it apply directly to our lifes?

       Or would life be like it was in the music video at the top of this post? Taking you places without your permission. Leading you down paths you never thought you'd chose. Always picking us up and dropping us off in random places, without warning. Is our life just one big "Show" that we have absolutely no control over?

       I believe it is a mixture of both.. I think God spoke his words so we could still read them today.. in the Bible. It is "God breathed." In a way its God's guidlines, rules,  for us to live our lifes by everyday. The Bible gives us examples of what to do, and what not to do and everything in between. Yes every single life is different and uniquely designed. Sometimes things aren't gonna go our way. Things aren't going to be the way we want. Sometimes things will run unusually smooth. We might struggle and get confused. But at the same time, we need to enjoy life's crazy ride. Life will throw you curve balls, you can learn to swerve and miss them, striking out, or you can hit them way into outfield and run the bases and finally slide into homeplate,  with the perfect homerun, winning the "game", the game of life.

     Life IS a maze. You are going to make wrong turns, get mixed up and turn right back around. You might even find yourself back where you started. You will hit dead ends that cause so much dissappointment and it might get so stressful you'll want to give up. You'll have to backtrack in an effort to find the correct route.  You think that every path you go down is leading closer to the end, you think you are almost there, but you are further away from the finishline and you are stuck. You'll turn to material things, "Ohh if I buy this new dress, car, computer, house... If I had a million dollars... If I marry the man of my dreams... If I move to the big city... then I'll be satisfied." Then you go down another route, drugs, drinking, new job, new hobby, new husband, new this.. new that... It all leads to a "new" dead end, leaving you worn out and restless. There is only ONE way through this maze, you may have to try every option possible to get to the end. But you will feel so relieved when you reach the end.. when you stop looking for a way to the end.. Stop thinking so hard, think outside the box. As a kid, I would always start at the end of a maze, and try to find my way to the start. So maybe if we start at the end, if we start with being happy, content, fully focused on Him, then we go through the maze looking how our life should be, what it should look like. Once we figure it out, we can start tracing our path and figure out it was all too simple, God's there. Waiting for you at the finish line. With open arms, Start with him. and end with the beginning. Know what your life should look like at the end, and start making the correct turns that'll lead you there.. Just like in the video, God will pick you up and place you where you need to be. You may not like every point in your life. But you'll know in the end everything will turn out just the way it should.


      Love IS a riddle. I don't know about you but riddles, to me, are ridiculous, and very hard to solve. I mean who wants to make your brain think and THINK and think so hard about some silly riddle, a joke, a puzzle, a phrase with a double standard meaning. I know every time someone tells me a riddle, I think about it for about 3 seconds and say "I don't know I give up, Whats the answer?" But we shouldn't give up. Not at all. Yes they are definitely hard to solve, and extremely difficult. But just wait, it will come to you. Just give yourself time. Give yourself time to figure "love" out. Let the answer come to you. Stop putting so much pressure on yourself to find the answer. IT WILL COME TO YOU, your prince will find YOU. He will and he'll be your answer. Everything will make sense. You'll know why all your other "answers" weren't the right ONE's. Why nothing else worked. It'll just click!


You've got a front row ticket for the show (even backstage passes) to... YOUR show! It might be a bumpy ride, so fasten your seat belts, sit back, relax, grab your popcorn, put on your 3D glasses, and just enjoy the show...

Monday, December 21, 2009

I’m sure you have all seen the movie, or at least read the book He's Not That Into You,(if you haven’t you have to, NOW!!!) If every girl lived her life according to this book we would all find our Mr. Rights and our Prince Charming with little to no problems. But unfortunately girls, we don't.

      The movie starts out at a playground, a precious little girl is building a sandcastle and a boy starts walking her way. She gives a flirty smile, surprised the boy is approaching her. The boy then pushes her down, telling her she smells like dog poo, that she is so stupid, just like dog poo, and that she is made out of poo… She runs to her mom, tears streaming down her face, to tell what the little boy had done. And then... her mom says, "Awww, honey, do you know why that little boy did those things, and said those things," she smiles as her daughter shakes her head no, "It’s because he likes you!" The girl looks surprised, and confused, as the narrator says "And there it is... That’s the beginning of our problem." The mom tells her daughter "That little boy is doing those terrible things because he has a crush on you." "Do you know what this means, were all encouraged, no, programmed, to believe that if a guy acts like a total jerk, that means he likes you." says the narrator.

      Then the movie shows a series of scenes of women, all over the world, giving excuses for guys... There is a scene of a girl telling her upset friend "Here's the problem, he likes you too much. You're too pretty and too awesome. He can't handle it." A girl waits by the phone while her friend comforts her saying "That Phi Delt obviously liked you, he must've just lost your number." After that, two coworkers discuss a man, one of the ladies tells the other "He’s not asking you out cause he is intimidated by your professional success." The next is a scene, where two Asian girls walk out of the mall as one explains to the other, "He's not asking you out because he's scared of your emotional maturity." Two middle aged women are taking a walk, one tells her workout buddy, "He's not asking you out because he just got out of a serious relationship." Followed by a scene of one military girl saying to the other "trust me it’s because he never had a serious relationship." The next is all the way in Africa, there are three women and one of the women tells the other "I'm sure he just forgot your hut number, or was eating by a lion," it comforts the girl and she smiles telling her friends how awesome they are.

      What is wrong with us? Why do we make all these excuses for guys across the world? Why can't we tell our friends... HES JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU!!! You all know what I'm talking about. We've all been there. Our friend is upset wondering why that wonderful guy she met last night hasn't called her, or why her boyfriend is ignoring her, or why Jack from 3rd period won't ask her out. We KNOW the answer. We KNOW why. For some reason, he does NOT like her. Wouldn't it be easier just to tell our friend, look he doesn't like you. at all. move on. Than to try to think of every explanation in the book, as to why he is not acting right.

      And it gets even worse with ourselves. I am guessing I am not the only one who has checked my phone a billion times to see if "he" called. Then you check to see if somehow your phone magically got turned on silent.. and then you the turn the volume on loud, oh wait, it already was. Then you think crap, I did give him the right number, right? I mean my number and my mom’s number are sort of the same they both start with 399 and you were so nervous talking to him, so that could be a possibility... ya know, that’s probably what happened. So you go ask mom… has anyone called you asking for me? Nope. Then you wait and you wait. He never calls. But he said he would? Look at how much time we just wasted, waiting. Waiting for a guy that never even liked us in the first place.

      Ya know, we just don't take rejection very well. We don't wanna believe that he just doesn't like us. And why would we want to make that guy, that doesn't like us already, like us? We don't need him. What.. we’re gonna force him to like us? He's just settling if he does. and honestly so are we. We need to stop.

      I am recently single. And you better believe that 1st guy that is 15 minutes late on a date, I’m out of there. The guy that says he’s gonna call Wednesday night but doesn’t until Friday, GOODBYE. The one that works his charm on me, then I see him later flirting with Betsy big boobs, Hasta La Vista, baby! Even if it was BRAD PITT that cheats on me, TaTa!! Nice knowing ya, buddy! (okay, maybe not if it was Brad Pitt, I’d probably let it slip, but you get my drift.)

      Girls, we are so much better than that! We have let guys push around for years! And we are letting them get away with it. We are giving them our heart and saying “Be careful with it, its fragile.” Then we watch them stomp on it, rip it to pieces, light it on fire, then pee on it to put it out, then we pick it up and hand it right back to them! And I’m not just preaching to ya’ll, I’ve done it too! Multiple times! Don’t we know we deserve better?

      I think if we all agree that we will stop putting up with all the crap, we won’t let these jerks get to us, even if he has baby blue eyes, and washboard abs, that we could really start something new, where we as women were actually valued by men. Maybe then we could all stop playing “the game,” and just fall head over heels for a guy and he do the same for us!

      And ALWAYS remember. Don’t make excuses. They aren’t into you. And you’re better than that! So don’t even think twice about him. On to the next, maybe the next one will be The One?!

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Looking for One’s Prince

By Sharon W. Lee

It’s just a “thang”, but it’s just a bit gross
I’ve kissed enough frogs, and I’ve kissed enough toads!
How many frogs in this life must I kiss
Till I finally find the one disguised as my Prince?

I sat on a stump, and I cried today,
Thinking of all the things in my way.
It’s silly it seems, but I guess it’s true,
Looking for One’s Prince can sure make one blue!

I’m tired of all the frogs… and I’m tired of all the toads!
By the look on my face… I’m sure it shows!
I’m worn out and weary, and discouraged now too!
I’m sick of ALL the frogs! And I want something NEW!

So, Prince, If your out there, or disguised as a toad…
This hard little game is sure getting old!
I’ve been a good sport, and could it be true
That you are possibly tiring of this crazy game too?
I guess I’ll keep looking, I’ll continue the search,
I’ll have a good attitude, and look through the jerks.
I’m sure it’ll be worth it, when this comes to an end
And I’ll meet my Prince, my darling, my friend!


     What a great poem, huh? Its my absolute favorite. My wonderfully talented mother wrote that for a friend when she was having men problems! My mom is so great! and is truly my best friend! always has the best advice! and knows how to word it.. as you can tell..
     Well... 4:51am December 18th, changed my life forever. I got a phone call that I'll never forget. Weird that I went to bed perfectly happy and woke up with my world in pieces! and in that short 4 mins and 6 seconds I found myself lost and not knowing what to do. I was told my "perfect" boyfriend wasn't so perfect, that my amazing relationship,  that I thought would last forever, just ended. I gave him my heart to "handle with care," he robbed it of all my feelings and left it on the side of the road to rot. For some reason, I just sat there. For hours. Not crying. Just in utter shock. I called him 32947 times. He finally called me back. I told him it was over. He didn't act the way I had hoped. He didn't deny everything, and didn't comfort me. He got mad and hung up.
     He was my world, my everything. I gave him my whole heart. How could he do this? He texted me later denying everything but saying I was wrong cause I didn't trust my boyfriend, I didn't believe my boyfriend so maybe its good we broke up. .....Why do they always turn it around on us? Make us feel bad? I felt horrible maybe he was right and I should believe him. NO... if he didn't do it. If he really wanted us to work. If I meant to him what he means to me, he would've been right there, comforting me. He would've drove to my house, let me know everything was gonna be alright, that he loved me and he would never do something like that to me. BUT he didn't.. instead he hung up. He sent one text. 
      Now THAT SUCKS. 3 YEARS. We have been dating on and off for 3 years. and he let it all end in one phone call. I loved him so much. I cared for him. I was faithful to him. I never lied to him. I was always there for him. I cried with him. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. I saw both of us in my future. I wanted to marry him. I wanted to be in love with him forever. I wanted to be there in his hard times, to help him out. I wanted to be with him. But he preferred other things. I couldn't be "that girl," for him... that girl that changed his life. and I hate it so much. I am angry because I poured my heart out to him. I prayed every night for him. I prayed that he would change and come back, that things would be how they use to be.. when I was his everything. I always went back to him when I thought he changed. I cry because he couldn't love me the way I loved him. He was the best and most horrible thing that ever happened to me. I saw the good in him. I valued him. Does he not remember? I saw the good in him and could bring it out fully. I listened. I cared. I had so much faith in this and it blew up in my face.
     Sad part is I STILL LOVE you. I still see the good in you. I still care. I love you so much that I want you to be happy. I want you to find that girl that will change your life. Dustin I want you to love someone as much as I loved you. You need to love, its the most amazing feeling in the world. and yes it is love that has broken me. But there is no regret because the feeling I experienced was amazing. And I'm not going to give up. I know there is someone out there looking for me. Someone that is going to love me with a whole heart. Someone that is going to put me above everything else. Someone that won't cheat and won't lie. Someone that loves my goofy self. and truly loves me for ME!

     Dust you'll find that girl thats going to change you. You are going to LOVE her. Shes going to be your everything. Shes going to be the one you want to give the world to, and shes going to give you her world in return. and it sucks. Oh it sucks so bad that I can't be that girl. but like you always say "sounds like life to me." and this is life.
      We are going to go through all the toads and frogs. We are going to fall for them. Head over heels. Give them EVERYTHING. and they are going to give us nothing but a heartache in return. Its life. But we have to go through all that. We have to learn. We have to grow stronger so when our prince comes we will know it! We will know he is different! We got to experience the wrong so we will know the right, when it shows up.  Like they say.. What doesn't break you, will only make you stronger! and it will! I am going to be a stronger person. I am going to be smarter and more caution next time. I am going to pay attention to the signs and I'm not going to put up with the crap. I've learned a lot from him and I'm going to take it all with me.
    Yes right now, I'm broken. I turn to advice. I turn to sad break up quotes and old break up songs. But its my way of healing. It's good to see people have gone through the same thing and have survived. I am going to hurt. I'm going to remember the good times, because we had oh so many. He was my best friend. I'm gonna look at his facebook 27 times a day. I'm going to be hurt when he finds another pretty girl to be with but in the end.... I'll be okay! I'll move on. I'll find someone. I'll be okay...

Amanda Marshall - I'll Be Okay Lyrics

It's time to let you go
It's time to say goodbye
There's no more excuses
No more tears to cry
There's been so many changes
I was so confused
All along you were the one
All the time I never knew

I want you to be happy
You're my best friend
But it's so hard to let you go now
All that could have been
I'll always have the memories
She'll always have you
Fate has a way of changing
Just when you don't want it to


Throw away the chains
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I'll be okay

Life passes so quickly
You gotta take the time
Or you'll miss what really matters
You'll miss all the signs
I've spent my life searching
For what was always there
Sometimes it will be too late
Sometimes it won't be fair


I won't give up
I won't give in
I can't recreate what just might have been
I know that my heart will find love again
Now is the time to begin

I can't hold on forever baby
I'll be okay

I don't know if  what I wrote even made sense... I just had a lot of feelings and blogged all of them. Just needed to get some stuff out. So if you didn't understand this blog, don't feel bad. I haven't even proof-read it to see if it made sense.. like I said. A blog=  a place to store all my thoughts. This blog is proof.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Adullam House

The Adullam House...
oh where do I began.. the Adullam House is a HOME to kids whose parents are incarcerated and have no family that can keep them.  The Adullam House opens their arms wide,
and gives hope to the mothers in prison, so that their children can have a chance at a better life. A life full of happiness and laughter! A life with tons of love and support! A life that was made to honor and serve Him!

I am lucky enough to have witnessed the happiness of these wonderful children. I have volunteered numerous times at the Adullam House, and absolutely LOVE it! Everytime I go, I am there to bless these kids, and come out being the one who was blessed! These kids are so happy! So fun! So crazy! Always have a smile on their faces! You would think since their mothers are in prison, and there is no one else in their family that can care of them, they would be bitter, and distance. But it is the complete opposite, they are so loving from the moment you walk in, until you leave.

There are soooooo many touching stories but if I typed them all I would have to write a whole book but one imparticular is truly amazing  and special to me:

^^^^Above: Me and Logan

It was a rainy, Monday night, I had just arrived at the Adullam House, I was really excited and totally ready to see these kids. I volunteered at the Adullam House times before but I hadn't been in awhile so I was really excited to see all these kids and see how big they had gotten. Well I just walked in the door, trying to get dry, and prepare for the craziness of this awesome home, and I was welcomed by Logan. He about knocked me to the floor. He hugged me, jumped on me, squeezed me, and pulled my hair (he was excited), I don't know why Logan greeted me the way he did but he was so happy to see me. I remembered Logan... but times before I was usually holding one of the other kids (there are about 35 kids, so it makes it kind of impossible to get really close to all of them in a couple of nights.) But I was still really pumped to see Logan and see how happy he was to see me. He said.. uhh whats your name again, "Prissy" I replied! "PRISSSY, PRISSSSSSY,"  he didn't let go of me the rest of the night. There was about 5 little boys begging for my attention, so I was trying to be fair. But Logan wasn't afriad to claim "He had me first." :) It was flattering to see all these boys fightin for my attention... not that I don't get that all the time with grown boys, "scarcastic laugh." :) but it was fun! I let them rotate from sitting on my lap, to sitting on my legs, to my feet and also sit behind me on the couch. (can you tell I was loving the attention?) But again, Logan was the constant. We became really really close in those 3 and a half hours! But as entergetic as Logan was, bouncing around, running, laughing, being a beautiful young boy.. I remember seeing an article about him in the Adullam House's Newsletter... Logan came to the Adullam house as a newborn baby boy. They believed that he would never walk. He is now 6 years old, going on 7 in May 2010. He had some serious skull surgery to repair the shape of his skull. But as you can see, and read, Logan is healthy. He is happy as can be, and one of the most engetic kids I know! The power of prayer is so amazing and without the Adullam House caring enough to take these kids in, where would Logan be today? Would he be walking? Would he be alive? Would he be normal? Would he know HIM? Ahhh I love the Adullam House and they are truly making a difference in these kids lifes, as well as everyone who has had the priveledge of watching these kids grow!


Thursday, December 10, 2009

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 Beers.

   A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

   The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

   The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

   The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.. 'Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

   The golf balls are the important things---your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full..

   The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car. The sand is everything else---the small stuff. 'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.

The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Spend time with your children. Spend time with your parents. Visit with grandparents. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter.

Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.

   One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the Beer represented. The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.'

   The Beer just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of Beers with a friend.


I love this illustration! All so very true! and yet we do care about the small stuff! More times than not, we really put the small stuff before the big things in life. We should always keep our "golf balls," as our number one priority. Like he said, family and friends will always be there. Always there to get you through. Always be there when you are feeling yuck. Never put the "sand" above the "golf balls." :) Also, I know some of you didn't like the beer part in the story. But the point he made was so dead on. Not that we should always go "drink" with friends. But that there is always room to stop from what you're doing and go hang out with a friend. Go to a movie. Go to dinner. Go to the park. Go shopping. etc. All these nights that you sit at home because you are too lazy to get ready, have nothing to wear, too "tired", have to wake up early, don't know if it'll be worth it, or just don't feel like it, GET UP! Get out there! Our days are limited here! Spend every moment just having FUN! Enjoying life! Cause you will never remember those nights you sat in your pajama's watching tv shows all night, or going to bed "early." There is no telling how many memories you are missing out on! Life's short.. so get off your booty, get all dolled up and get ready for a night you'll never forget! Because with a life full of nights you'll never forget... You will be the person that people will always remember!, I need to practice what I preach :)

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

It was late Sunday night, I had just got home from a long weekend in Atlanta. My family and I had gone to watch the Alabama Crimson Tide and the Florida Gators battle it out for the title of the SEC Championship. We go every year, regardless of who’s playing. My dad, my sister, my brother and I all went, only one person was missing, my mom. She doesn’t like those kind of things, she’d rather stay home, but we missed her greatly.

I was extremely thrilled when I arrived home seeing that her light was still on in her bedroom…YESSS! I chatted with her for awhile, telling her of our adventures of the weekend, but was really eager to watch the new episode of Desperate Housewives! So we both decided we would watch it together, regardless of the time.

There we were, sitting there in the wee hours of the morning, gossiping about the wives of Wisteria Lane, and aww'ing over Gabby's precious wardrobe when the TV turned to commercial. Since the show was on tivo, I could fast forward through all the pointless commercials. Until I saw it... The new season of the Bachelor's trailer came on.. JAKEEEEE!! Ahhh I just started ohhh'ing and ahhhh'ing and holding my hands to my heart, as though I was in fear my heart was going to pop out of my chest. I literally was bouncing around in my seat, putting my hands to my mouth to hush the high pitched squeals! Giggling and smiling from ear to ear. How beautiful "Jake" is... It shouldn’t even be legal!

I turned to my mom as she just grinned and grinned. Then I said to her, "Mom, I'm really kinda boy crazy, huh?" She laughed and said "Prissy, I was just reading the journal I kept when you were a baby. You started young." I smiled and asked what she meant. She said "You were barely 2 and a half and you were boy crazy. You were in LOVE with Billy Ray Cyrus! You were only 2! and thats all you talked about." I was! I remember! Me and my best friend Molly would shut the door to my parents room and jump on the bed, singing "Achy Breaky Heart" to the top of our lungs as we watched “The Best of Billy Ray Cyrus,” full of video clips from concerts and interviews. We loved him. But I guess I didn't get the full gist of what my mom meant until I read the journal myself...

March 8, 1993:
"......2 1/2 years old!!, but so much older in your maturity; sometimes you act just like a 16 year old. You have fallen head over heels with a Country song singer: Billy Ray Cyrus. Oh how you go crazy when you hear him sing. We listen to his CD over and over and over and over. And you tell me to "turn it up LOUD." You know almost all of the words to several of his songs. And you talk about "Billy Ray as if you actually knew him. There was a 30 minute special that came on about him on TV a couple of Sundays ago. Oh! you were so thrilled! You giggled and giggled and put your hand to your heart and actually swooned over the guy. You kissed him several times on the TV screen and said how you wish he could come to your house and you wanted him to hold your hand!
This ^^ is my little girl... at 2 years old!! What will you be like as a teenager?"

Sunday, April 12, 2009

what is love?

I wrote this awhile back in April.. And I am just now getting back on this site. Miss me? Probably not. But going back to read this post, the only post I posted, it kind of caught me off guard. I had completely forgot about writting this...

Love what exactly is love. Everyone wants it. People spend their whole lifes searching for it. but whats the big deal? Is love the reason we live? Is it the reason we get out of bed every morning? I mean whats life without love? I'll tell you.. life without love is a dark pointless place. I mean but really these days people love basketball, they love the movie they saw tonight at the local theatre, they love the stranger they met at the grocery store for helping them pick up their falling items. what sets apart love for things from love for a person. these days people throw around the word love. So how could we possibly know the difference... I don't